Drinking less

I hate that I automatically worry that Zoe is in heart failure or some sort of distress when I hear her pant and sweat.  I hate that I automatically worry if I don't hear her breathing hard in the middle of the night.  I hate that I constantly count how many ounces she eats a day.  I'm in constant fear of her going into heart failure. 

She’s not intaking her milk like she should be.  For the last few days, she’s drinking half of what she should be and sleeping a lot more.  She’s not teething nor does she have a fever.  We’re really worried that it’s the onset of heart failure.  I’m only hoping that the pediatrician tells us to come back in a week to see if there’s any weight gain, and if not, we’ll have to push our August 2^nd Cardiac appointment up a lot sooner.  Mike and I knew this day would/could  eventually happen, but as I type this with tears in my eyes, I’m not ready for another surgery any time soon.

I wouldn’t freak out as much as I am if she didn’t have “open” heart issues.  And since she sweats a lot as it is (another sign), not drinking the requirements make me really uneasy.  We have her 4 month check up this afternoon with her pediatrician.  

I hope that I'm not jumping the gun and I’m just hoping the doctor looks at me and laughs at me and says “Zoe’s just fine”.   I just start thinking that we went through the "gloom and doom" days for a few months than received nothing but positive news.  Just hoping our luck hasn't run out.  Hoping that this is just a fluke and/or a growth spurt.  Zander always ate a ton when he went through a growth spurt.

Prayers and good thoughts are appreciated.