Well today is finally here. These last 6 weeks have flown by. When we were told in early August that she was in heart failure and needing surgery in September, 6 weeks seemed so far off, but today is my last day of work for my "2 week vacation". Last night I actually fell asleep (probably the 2.5 glasses of wine helped). Throughout the week my heart has raced, my anxiety has been through the roof, I can't help pondering "what if". I look at my precious daughter and that smile from ear and ear and just break down and cry sometimes. I deserve to have a pity party every once in a while. I do believe I've held it together well for the last year, considering all the diagnoses, preterm labor (twice), intestinal surgery, etc. I've had my moments where I think I've become a crazy person, but rightfully so. However, on the positive side, Zoe is amazing, determined little girl. She is extremely strong physically and emotionally. Although she's 7.5 months old, she has taught me so much. She has made me a better mother and person.
Tomorrow our neighborhood community is hosting "High Fives For Zoe", where all the kids are finger painting to wish Zoe well. Mike and I will be alternating spending time with Zander there tomorrow, as we're keeping Zoe away from all kids. Not to mention fall is here and air has become brisk. We also have a family friend's wedding to attend. It'll be good for Mike & I to get dressed up and enjoy some alone time for a few hours. Sunday is my 32nd birthday (sounds so old to me) and we're having her anointed. We have family and close friends coming to support us and Zoe. Monday is her preop and then Tuesday is the DAY.
I probably won't be updating the blog until sometime next week, but will be updating "
Zoe's Journey" on facebook as its easier to just plug in a status or picture. So feel free to check there. I'll update the blog once things calm down next week and I have time to actually sit and write.
Butterflies for Courageous Kids made this beautiful butterfly for Zoe. We'll be taking it with us during her surgery.
Socks 4 Surgery made us these, aren't they cute?
Thank you so much for all the prayers. Without your kind words, etc. this would be alot tougher. Thank goodness for social media.
My prayers are with you! Praying everything will go smoothly! God has his hand on her! HUGS!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful pictures! Praying for sweet Zoe, she will be fine!
ReplyDeleteHi Reyes family,
ReplyDeleteI don't think we have met but we have a mutual friend, Jennifer Naylor. I saw her post on fb asking for prayers for Zoe. I read your story and blog and just wanted to reach out to you. Zoe is beautiful. I used to work in a PICU and have seen many infants and children cardiac post-op. Those little ones are so tough. If I can do anything for you please feel free to let me or Jennifer know-- cook, clean, babysit, pray, listen. Being a mother to a little girl myself, I know what you mean when you say she is your whole world. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Zoe and your whole family.
Take care,
Stephanie Wells
steph.ewells@gmail.com