"How are you holding up?" is the infamous question I've been getting from close friends and family. A few days ago I would have said, horrible, sad, life isn't fair, why me, etc. Yesterday morning I woke up with a weird feeling, almost like a peaceful feeling. Yesterday and so far today, I have not shed any tears. I feel like I had a revelation yesterday morning and I know everything will be ok. Mike & I chose this path. I truly believe Zoe is meant to be here, just with all the circumstances that Mike & I have gone through. She's a fighter, and has an amazing amount of strength for being only 29 weeks old. We're her parents and will do anything to make sure she has a healthy and fabulous life. Everyone has obstacles to go through in life, so no one's life is perfect. If she does have Down Syndrome, this isn't the worst thing in the world. I've been focusing so much on the "special needs" aspect versus her little heart, and truly, it should be the other way around. She has so much to go through in the first year of life, that I need to start focusing on that.
With the help of my blog and the amount of people Mike & I know, I know whatever her diagnosis is tomorrow, we will have the resources to turn to as well as being put into contact with other families going through the same thing.
Maybe Mike & I were meant to be apart of this, maybe this was our destiny when we were little. I do believe in fate and I do believe things happen for a reason. We're both social and truly care about people (look at Mike's profession). Maybe we're meant to help further research and be apart of the special community that Zoe may be apart of.
For whatever reason, I'm at peace with whatever will be thrown our way tomorrow...this of course doesn't mean no more tears will be shed, but I know in the end, everything will be just fine.
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